downer alert

ran across an old poem of mine that describes a feeling that has snuck up on me again tonight.  it's been a long time since i've felt this fragmented, purposeless and crowded in my head.

I am where reflection splinters
I have grown already old
I am heavy with guileless winters
And all the failure this body can hold.

In hidden places I am tangle-souled,
The crush of selfs spins funhouse dizzy.
In quiet spaces I am left alone
With vampire's glass, empty, silent and cold.

I am a whirlpool of fleeting glimpses,
Fractured images,
Fragments shifting.
I am a blind, broken mirror,
Churning water, sightless,
That swallows and seethes.

not to worry.  probably just need some good old-fashioned sleep.  and maybe to vaccuum my place once in a while, sheesh, slobby.

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4 Responses to “downer alert”

  1. 1 Leg over Leg zine December 13, 2006 at 11:39 pm

    Sorry… I think that is a reoccurring feeling that I have also, so at least you aren't totally alone. Actually, I am pretty sure I felt like that this afternoon.

  2. 2 Ernie December 14, 2006 at 12:06 am

    thank you for the commiseration!and writing always helps. i find it immensely liberating if i can pin down a feeling with just the right words.

  3. 3 Matthew J December 14, 2006 at 12:31 am

    you are your purpose. this mountains already toast. i love you

  4. 4 Piscis December 14, 2006 at 1:03 pm

    Aw… Very nice writing, but do get to feeling better!
    You're anything but purposeless!

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